My First Week Of School

If there's one word to describe my first week, the word is SUCK!
Yes, sucks big time!
And if there's one feeling I am NOT feeling, the feeling is HAPPY.

I am friggin thrilled and excited for 2007.
Another year before I can actually run away from home (legally) - which I am not planning to do so yet.
I get to drive car, go college, be oh-so-called-mature, and financially capable (I think?)

So obviously I am looking forward for this year.
I have my debates, my other competitions, SPM around the corner (not so around the corner yet) and lots lots of other stuff.

Well, right now, I have to scratch all that rubbish.
I am NOT thrilled to go through another day of 2007.
I've only been to school for a mere 3 days,3 DAys!
And it feels like hell.
I am actually waiting for weekends to come.

Not to say before this I am not, I am.
But regardless of how much I am looking forward for public holidays, school holidays or weekends, I still like going to school.

But not this year.
After 10 years of schooling (plus 2 pre-school) I have FINALLY hate school.
Back then, if there's one place I would rather be more than my home, it's school.
Yes, call me geek or whatsoever. But I used to feel that way.

I am supposed to blog about this yesterday, but NOOOOOO.....
Of all the days that I really need my blog to post and rant in,
That's the day the connection is down and the website being stupid!
I am mentally and physically tired and exhausted.
Right now, all I wanted is to scream at everyone and anyone that passes by me and yell at them for even talking to me.

Clearly these 3 days have caused me lots of pain.
Why?

1 - Personal problem about somebody's ex that only Iona knows and NOT for anyone else to know EVER!
2- Adilah transferred school when I finally has found someone new to replace Farahs that left me here in STAR
3 - Everyone is being a bitch!

4 - I don't have time to talk to anyone and everyone.
5 - I didn't get enough sleep (consecutively)
6 - Homework is like beserk! There's no sympathy for SPM-ers. Killer amounts of homeworks. Special thanks to En. Rasul for making such dream comes true.

7 - Someone stupidly framed my name into saying something so stupid and ridiculous that practically everyone thinks it's SO NOT ME (ok fine, maybe a lil bit of me) - and get it to be published in the year book.Weee.....How ridiculous can I be to say 'Students should be allowed to skip schools more frequently'? Excuse me, I went to school more than anyone in the whole school! I even go to school on weekends and school holidays! And how is it possible that I am agreeing to the fact that ' students should be allowed to skip school frequently'? And even if I did agree with that statement, I would have put it like this ' Students should be given more holidays and longer ones'. See? Doesn't that sounds WAY better than 'Students Should Be Allowed to skip school frequently'? (exaggerating, I know! I am emo right now, don't say anything or even think)
Well, that person must own up to his/her mistakes in publishing my name for such a ridiculous statement or you'll burn your ass in SPM. And I mean it!

8 - Daryl jokingly said " Well dear, if all your friends are leaving you, then there must be something wrong with you." after I rant to Adilah about how everyone is leaving me alone in the class. So if it really was a joke, still, if you have like nearly 10 friends of yours transferring school consecutively, then there has to be SOMETHING wrong with you righT?
9 - Class could never get anymore 'INTERESTING' after this. I am left alone in class to finally ventured the real meaning of 'boredom'.

10 - Sucky emotional problem that shall not be announced to public.
11 - Mom cut down TV hours for me.I don't get to watch TV as often as before.
12 - Thinking I have to spend the next 360 days trying to fulfill every fucking expectations of people who thinks I am some sort of high achiever rubbish thing!

13 - I don't even get to go cry or console or rant from neither Iona or Afiq who is the only best friends left in this school. Why? Coz they're too busy!*pissed* (Who knows both of them are going to leave me next to rot and die here)
14 - Thinking I have another 360 days of agony and pain to face before a new year of agony and pain arrives.
15 - And sadly to say, people being stressed and emo affected me because I absorbed their energy.
16 - I have lost all the reasons to be excited to go to school this year thanks to everyone ditching me!

P.S : If you want to be emo or sucky next time, stay away from me.

All I wanted was a smooth year or at least a smooth week.
And I didn't get any of it.
The whole fuck-ly thing sucks!!

Signing Out,
Mentally Insane and I am emo!
Buzz off!