Its almost weird

I think its almost weird :-

when someone's boyfriend is meeting the ex; and the girlfriend is fine with it.
she's cool and she acknowledges it.

she doesn't want to see the ex, neither does she wants to be friend with the ex of her boyfriend, but she doesn't mind him seeing his ex.

after all she knows, that even if the ex doesn't matter anymore, the ex would always be his past. the past of which, she was not a part of, and the past that only belongs to him and can never be taken away.

she doesn't mind, also because she does the same too with her ex. and he cannot take that away from her, because it is her past. and her past belongs to her.

deep down, the only reason that she allows the ex back into his life, because she wants him to do the same thing when it comes to her ex. and because she understands that once you love someone, the person never quite leave your heart. its almost a comforting feeling, to be able to see that person again, even if the situation or the feeling doesnt quite feel the same anymore.

and then, she waited 3 hours, at the very same place the boyfriend met his ex. tried to camouflage, like she was not part of the picture.

its like that picture, where the focus is on two people, but there's someone at the corner of the picture, blending in the environment. no one saw her, or notice her. but she is still, nonetheless, part of the picture.

and she got a different feeling.
a feeling like she's losing grip of him. him, of whom has always been hers all this while. only 3 hours later.

a second would change the world, what more would 3 hours?

it pained her to see him beaming with happiness, the psyched face when he's too excited about something. dressing up for her, and asking the girlfriend if he looks good and decent enough to see the ex.

the boyfriend came back into the girlfriend's arms, telling her how much he misses her. and how much he loves her. and how much he is glad that she is his world now, and not the ex.

only after telling the girlfriend how much fun he had with the ex.

no matter how much he has been convincing her, she cant quite convince herself that he's still hers. because right now, in her head, he is already slipping away.
its just time that will tell her that she's wrong or right.
because she has seen it before, and she knows what this will lead to, eventually.

guess what,he saw her again today.
she doesn't want to talk about it anymore.

"i was too nice to let it slide"

lets hope thats not what she will say sometime in the future.



-kd-