This is due to the reason that I am far too busy doing other things (catching up with friends, shopping, watching tv, go out with family, sleep etc etc) that I just don't have to update that frequently anymore.
There are those times of the day when something super brilliant would cross my mind and I know it'd be a superbly good material to blog about,
But then, the thoughts are never really posted up in this blog due to the fact that :-
1 - There is no internet connection
2 - The inconvenience of posting the post up.
Put aside all the rantings and move on to my points.
I received a message from a dear friend last night.
What we talked about shall remain discreet betwen just the both of us.
But I guess I could not help but to think of what she felt last week.
Being down and all.
I'm not sure if I told her this before,
But she has always been potrayed as the strongest person I've befriended with.
And when she (almost) broke down, it crossed my mind.
Crossed my mind on how we lie ourselves that we're strong enough.
Strong enough to face this world alone.
"Yang kuat akan mamah-mamah dan makan yang lemah dan kecil." - Baik Punya Cilok
I guess it's how the world has been formed into that makes us the way we are.
We think that we cannot help risking ourselves by showing that we may be gullible and weak at times.
That we need to be protected once in a while and that it's not wrong to feel weak at certain times.
Do not get me wrong.
I am not pointing to anyone,
Because honestly speaking we are all just like that friend of mine.
Even I am like that.
There are times when I feel like the worst loser,
There are times when I feel like all I wanted to do is rot and die in a hole,
There are times I feel like giving up to the world and all the shits in it.
And I refuse to admit to the world about it.
I refuse to tell a friend about it.
I'd rather have it eat me inside out,
Till I feel so weak and fragile.
That's where I was wrong.
That's where we are wrong.
We need to Be Weak so that we can be stronger.
"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
Don't make me sing Kanye West's Stronger.
All I'm saying is that it's ok for us to cry once in a while.
To tell a friend that we need them because we don't feel like ourselves.
To seek for the comfort of others because that's the thing you need most at the time you're at your lowest point of life.
Life is about dependence.
I remember learning about dependence in Science when I was in Standard 4.
The teacher told me that everything needs to be dependent on each other.
Trees need air to breath, Air needs trees to be produced.
It's the law of the Nature.
And here we are, defying how the Nature works.
Because we are too scared of the probability of being crushed if we show our true selves.
The sometimes-I-can-be-weak self.
All I'm saying is that it's ok to let people know that we're weak.
It's ok that we need people once in a while in certain episode of life.
And that goes to all of the readers, including the blogger herself.
Take care of yourself.
Weakness is not permanent, nor it is a crime.
It's a part of you, the part you are not supposed to be shameful about.
And if you need me, anytime, anywhere,
Do sms me.
I'll get back to you, no matter how busy I am.
"I always make time for everyone no matter how busy I am." - Khadi
I would love to blog more,
But my time's running out.
It's late and I'm still out.
Signing Out,
I'll Update When I'm in My 'Chim' Mode Again.
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